Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Rough Draft of Paper #2

The Good in Teachers
            I’m not one who likes to bash on teachers a lot.  Not saying I’ve had the best success with all my teachers but I try to find the good in all of them.  My reason behind that is because my grandmother is a school teacher and I know all the stress she goes through.  Before moving to Washington, I would go in three to four times out of the week to help my grandma in her classroom.  Although I enjoyed helping out and seeing the kids understand when I would go around helping each one individually, I saw the stress that came along.  Being a teacher isn’t easy.  As a matter of fact it’s a lot of hard work which a lot of people don’t see.  I actually had two amazing teachers, one who made me even consider becoming a teacher myself when I got older. 
          For starters, I was somewhat of an unruly child growing up shortly after my parents divorced.  A few years had gone by and my mom was remarried and had a baby on the way.  I was in fourth grade when I met one of my all time favorite teachers, probably the best I’ve had.  I had a lot of mixed emotions about my step dad and that I would no longer be the only child.  Nine years of my life had gone by where I was the spoiled one and now that spotlight was about to be taken away.  Selfish I know, but it’s the truth.  Mrs. Jenkins helped me work through my emotions, through poetry.  Ever since I was little I would always love making my own homemade birthday and Mother’s Day cards.  Mrs. Jenkins helped me expand that horizon even more and put my emotions on paper.  We wrote a lot in fourth grade surprisingly, A LOT.  At first I wasn’t too keen on the idea and dreaded it but as time went on, my fourth grade teacher went onto show other fourth grade teachers as well as fifth, that I had a gift in my writing.  Something different, something unique that was like no other.  I then took feedback that other teachers were telling me and wrote my little heart out.  My poems would be about just anything that had gone on in my mind, along with pictures of course. 
            Back in Florida, we would have to take a test each year called the FCAT.  It would determine whether you would move up a grade or not.  I hated the FCAT.  I thought if you’re making the grades, then that should determine whether you pass or not, not the stupid test.  Mrs. Jenkins was prepping my classmates and I for the FCAT writing which is why we would write so much in class.  The first couple essays I had wrote she would always find things to correct and I would find myself getting frustrated not only at her, but myself.  I wanted to be perfect.  I wanted to be the best writer there was regardless if I was only in fourth grade.  Mrs. Jenkins would see the frustration and call me over quietly after talking with the other students about their papers individually.  She’d always say, “Syd, you have a gift.  Now either use that gift and make it even better, or dwell in your mistakes and not change them.”  I don’t know why but she had this way of calming me down and making me want to become even better of a writer.  She made me feel good of myself, she made me feel proud.  A lot of teachers don’t go out of their way to do that for their students.  Mrs. Jenkins, well she’s a great example of a role model if you ask me.  She never gives up on her students and I love that about her.
            Next, would be my girl’s weightlifting and flag football coach.  I never had her as a teacher but I thought of her as one.  Coach KJ was something else.  She would have you so mad sometimes, then the others she would have you laughing up a storm.  The kind of teacher you have a love hate relationship with.  A lot of students would talk crap about KJ because she was “too hard” on her students when in reality, she was only trying to help her students become even better than they were.  Now, not to say she didn’t have students that didn’t love her because she did, you just wanted to be careful on how you acted around her.  Having her as a coach and being a student aide for her, we learned a lot about each other.  Before practice and sometimes even during lunch, I would go to her class and before I could even ask for help, she would say “Did you try first?”  Then if you said yes she would say “Let me see your work and where you tried.”  We sure as hell knew how to push each other’s buttons but at the end of the day, I was so grateful to have her as a coach and friend.  She pushed me both on and off the field.  She pushed all of her students and athletes because she saw something different in us all.  She’d rather have her hate you for busting your ass making you try, then to have you like her just because she’s cool and fun.  Whenever I think of KJ I always think of the saying, work hard play hard.  She challenged me but she also made it fun.  Not only that, but coach was always there whenever you needed her. 
            Throughout my life I never had a strong relationship with my step dad.  We would get in at least one fight once a day and once was lucky.  That bad relationship with my step dad caused my mom and my relationship to go in a downward spiral, which sucked because my mom and I use to be so close.  I could go to KJ whenever I was having a bad day and she’d talk me through it.  I remember one Monday afternoon my junior year things had gotten really bad in my house that previous weekend so I had gone to KJ’s room to talk to her about it briefly.  She told me “Why don’t you write her a letter?”  All I could do was laugh and in my head I thought it was the dumbest idea.  She said, “No really, you don’t even have to give it to her.  Just write your feelings down to get it all out.”  KJ was right, but it only helped the pain go away for so long.  That’s not what matters though.  What matters is she was there for me.  She talked me through my pain.

            I’ve had a lot of teachers, both good and bad.  Mrs. Jenkins and Coach KJ though.  They’ll always hold a special place in my heart.  They weren’t just teachers but role models and I will forever be thankful for them and how they’ve had a part in shaping me in who I am today.  

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